I sit here today, dumping my candy into a bowl for all the kids who will knock on our door tonight and think about what an excited five year old might want to be...which if you know my husband, to even ask that question is silly - he would of course be sporting a BJJ GI. I can see him in it too, trying to contain his excitement waiting for daddy to come home from work so we can go trick or treating....how much time has to pass before you stop picturing these things? How do you stay in, on Halloween, to pass out candy to everyone else's child while you think about the things that your own child missed out on? These are obviously rhetorical questions, there are no answers to them - at least none that I can come up with.
I spent the afternoon with Christopher today, helping him shop for his Halloween costume and I'm thankful that, even though he is now an adult, I get to participate in that part of his life, it was fun and exactly what I needed. Without him, today would have been even harder.